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How I plan to create a happy, healthy home for my daughter

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When I think back on my childhood I feel melancholy. The overarching thoughts in my head being about how I wished things were different. I appreciate that I was able to go to swim lessons, dance classes, I had lots of clothes, shoes, and material items, but if I had to be 100% honest, they did nothing for me. I spent a large chunk of my years with my grandparents and they were great but I do not recall ever being hugged, told I love you or receiving any sort of real affection from them.

Internally I was a sad and nervous child that really always second guessed herself all the time. I always tell my husband stories of going on field trips and seeing moms chaperoning, or about the birthday that my mom wasn’t there for but she paid for me to have a really nice party. Or about how I really had no one to talk to about my feelings or play with being an only child. I lived in my head a lot, thinking and overthinking.

Despite how I felt, my feelings were never actually communicated to anyone because nobody ever asked me how I felt. Yes, I had stuff, but when I think back on my childhood I don’t remember any of it. I remember feeling sad, anxious and lonely. I remember my feelings not my stuff. I remember that my mom was not there at the party but not one detail otherwise, I remember feeling sad about never having a parent involved in the mundane school activities but not the activities themselves. So when I had a daughter, I felt compelled to not recreate history, and to do what it takes to not be a perfect mom, but a mom who does her best to create a stable, happy and healthy space for my baby to grow up in. Some of the things I plan to do are:

Communicate, because kids have feelings too

One day on his way to work, my husband overheard a conversation between a mom and her son on the sidewalk. She asked him why he seemed so deep in thought and he said “because I have a lot on my mind”. His mom’s response was “you can’t have a lot on your mind, you’re fiveeeeee”. It was a cute little story but I definitely don’t share the same feelings as this mama. Ever since I was pregnant I was aware of Eden’s feelings, because she is a person. So I was always thinking about how she felt and what was best. So when she is able to actually talk to us, we will begin talking to her about feelings, to ensure that we establish healthy lines of communication. I want her to be able to come to us with anything, because things that may seem small to us are actually big in the world of kids. Plus, if she is ever in a position of needing to talk about a bad experience, whether bullying or some other type of hurt, I want to be her safe place.

Show her lots of affection

I love my baby, and I let her know exactly how much every single day. So much so, that she might think that my lips are a permanent part of her face. Both my husband and I are beyond affectionate with her and she loves it. We have so many pictures of her squealing with excitement as we kiss and cuddle her. I plan to continue to hold her hand, kiss her, hug her and tell her I love her 37464833 times a day. I hope that it will be the foundation for her future relationships and a daily reminder that I do care about her. I will also show her affection when she does something wrong, so that she knows my love is unconditional, regardless of the circumstance.

Be a model mommy

Not like Naomi Campbell or anything like that. But the role model type of model. Children are super perceptive and pick up on everything. So I plan to constantly work on myself to be the best person I can be. I plan to speak to her father with respect, treat people with kindness, and to watch my words and how I speak to others. I also plan to love myself because I want her to view herself in a favorable light, from her hair, to her skin, and everything in between. I feel strongly that this all begins with me. I want her to be kind, respectful and confident so that when she faces the world she can hold her head up and be proud of who she is.

Give her lots of quality time

Literally 4 months before the birth of my daughter I got a promotion. The promotion I always wanted! I work at a prominent medical center and moved to America in 2015 so this was an achievement for me! I was so excited at all the possibilities and thought of all the things I could do with the extra cash we would have. But now I see things totally differently. The thing is, if I keep my career momentum going I will be able to give my daughter so much, but I will also miss out on a lot. So my husband and I had to discuss what was truly best for our family. We ultimately decided that best was for me to give her more time as she grows up. By no means do I plan to stop working altogether, but in the coming years I will no longer be in charge of a department. My primary job will be chaperoning field trips, planning birthdays, holidays and making sure I’m healthy mentally and physically so that I can be there for my family. It was not the easiest decision for me, because I wanted my daughter to see her mom as a boss (lol), a leader in this amazing organization. But, ultimately when she looks back on her childhood, I want her to remember her fun childhood experiences, and I do not want those memories to be tarnished by the fact that her mother was not there.

Create meaningful experiences

Speaking of experiences. I plan to travel with my little family. We have so many places we want to see. Right here in New York, the US and around the world. I want Eden to see, learn and respect other cultures. I want her to see how other people live so that she can have a greater appreciation for her life. I want us to travel and get on each other’s nerves and just be outside of our comfort zone together. These are the types of memories that will last a lifetime and I hope to God her father and I can make it all happen.

Cultivate a safe and comfortable environment

When I was pregnant I was obsessed with the idea of finding a nice home to bring our daughter to. It was SO important and we definitely cut it close. So close that we closed on a purchase just two weeks before her birth. It’s in a nice quiet neighborhood with huge trees, good schools and parks nearby. She has her own room that we plan to make into whatever she wants it to be, so that it can be her sanctuary, a place to chill alone or with friends. We won’t be fake perfect parents but we also plan to not expose her to animosity, yelling or fighting because it makes kids feel awkward and crappy, so that just won’t be a thing in my house.

I am really hopeful that creating this positive environment would help to develop a confident, emotionally intelligent and happy little human, who is not bogged down by shitty memories, and above all I think that’s my biggest goal as a mother.

 

xo

-Nic

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BEATING THE BURNOUT: SELF-CARE IDEAS FOR NEW MOMS

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This past week my daughter was in the middle of a developmental leap, characterized by mood swings, sleep disturbances and extreme mommy obsession. On the worst days, she breastfeeds constantly, and gets upset when I put her down for any stretch of time, she’s happy one minute, then she’s sad, it’s a total emotional roller coaster. It’s now the end of the week and I am beyond drained, both physically and mentally. So self-care has been at the forefront of my mind. I feel pretty burned out, and i’m not gonna lie, it shows. As moms, especially when you’re new to to it all, we sometimes have a hard time finding balance. Everything can get a little overwhelming, and most times, we just keep going. You can’t pour from an empty cup and if we want to continue to be the best caregivers to our children, we must first care for ourselves, so I created a list of things that I do to help me to regroup, relax and get myself back on track.

Get some sleep

I’ve been running on very little sleep daily, so much so that before motherhood, I would not have believed it was possible for a human to function this sleep deprived. While it is possible, your body really does need proper sleep to give it a chance to repair and rejuvenate. Ask for help, from your significant other, a friend, your mom, someone you trust basically. Have them sit with your kid or kids and get some sleep.

Do a simple at home facial

I love Korean sheet masks. They’re cheap, they’re moisturizing, cool and soothing. I buy a bunch and slap one on when my skin looks dull and in need of a quick pick me up. If you’re interested, these are the ones I use. Your face feels so nice afterwards and it only takes a few minutes.

Get some exercise 

Exercise is great because of the endorphins it releases. Structurally, endorphins are similar to morphine and act as natural painkillers. They bring about feelings of euphoria and general well-being. If you’re like me and you hate structured workouts because you’re really freakin’ tired and unmotivated, put on your favorite playlist and dance in the most carefree and uninhibited way for a few minutes, stretch, bend and just go crazy.

Spend a little time outdoors

Go for a walk. Spending time outdoors is all about the fresh air and change in scenery. It makes you happier, improves blood pressure, regulates your heart rate and helps to clear your mind a little. Even if you take your kids with you, it will do wonders for your mood.

Connect with friends

Connecting with friends doesn’t even have to mean that you go out. A nice chat on the phone helps. It’ll take your mind off of the stressful things for a little while. When I talk to my friends, I definitely like to steer the conversation away from things that are too heavy and focus on lighthearted humor because laughing makes me feel good. I mean who doesn’t like a good laugh?

Hydrate

Drink water! Hydration helps your body to perform at optimal levels. And we need to be healthy to take care of our kids. Water regulates body temperature, lubricates joints and helps transport nutrients to give you energy and keep you healthy.

Eat a nourishing meal

I often see moms complaining about missed meals, but like a car, our brains need fuel to run efficiently. In the earliest days of motherhood, despite being a huge foodie, It would be hard to find the time to eat, and it definitely made me feel like crap which left me feeling super unfocused and hangry! So now I prioritize eating and I’m a much happier person for it.

Take some deep breaths

Close your eyes. Now, take a deep breath in, pause, and think about something that makes you happy, then, slowly breathe out. Feel any better? Breathing is a powerful stress reliever that’s supposed to help you feel less anxious. There’s tons of articles online about the benefits of breathing and different methods to make it more effective. It can be done anywhere, and doesn’t cost a dime. I recently received an Apple Watch as a gift and it makes me do breathing exercises several times a day. I gotta admit that at first I thought it was total nonsense but it does indeed help.

Take a hot shower or bubble bath

Even if you’re beyond overwhelmed, getting in the shower or the bath seems to wash the stress away, even if temporary. Hot water gets your blood moving and helps to loosen up tight muscles. If you really want to take your bath to the next level, there are these awesome bath-bombs that I use, they come in a variety of scents and the best part is, they make you feel super relaxed and they don’t stain your tub.

Give yourself a manicure or pedicure

This one actually takes some time, so I don’t get to do it as often as I like which is sad, because my hands and feet do look a little scary right now. When I do have the chance however, it really has a positive impact on my mood. You really don’t need to be a master nail painter or anything to give yourself a mani/pedi. Just wash your hands or feet, put on a nice moisturizing lotion and give them a little massage. Then file your nails, put on a clear coat of nail polish if you don’t have time to do color and voila! You’re done.

Diffuse essential oils

Essential oils are an all natural way to unwind and relieve stress. They’re the perfect pick me up after a stressful day and best of all, they work in your sleep. Put a few drops into a cool mist humidifier before bed and let them work their magic. The cool mist, helps to keep the air around you moist which has tons of benefits for your skin and hair. And adding oils just makes it even better. My personal favs are lavender and eucalyptus. Lavender not only smells divine, but it reduces stress, enhances mental concentration and calms feelings of anxiety. Eucalyptus has similar effects but also has the added benefit of fighting congestion and helping you to breathe better.

Find a creative outlet (if creativity is your thing)

For me, I write. Writing has really helped me over the last few months to overcome some of my anxiety and has given me an avenue to express myself. It’s freeing and really makes me feel like I’m doing something just for me. Putting the words in my head onto paper quite literally clears my mind and if creating is your thing, start working on something, anything. Your poetry, a painting, sew, knit, whatever you want to.

Express gratitude 

There have been many studies, including one from Harvard University that have found links between expressing gratitude and overall happiness. It can help you to have a more positive and hopeful mindset, improved relationships and even help you to get better sleep. Just grab a pen and paper and write a list of things you’re grateful for each day and actively practice saying thank you to the people in your life. It really puts things into perspective, makes you feel good and gives you a greater appreciation for the good things in your life.

What are some things you do to practice self-care? I’m always open to new ideas so definitely share your feedback and ideas with me.

xo

-Nic

 

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10 Things I Wish I Could Tell My Pregnant Self After 5 Months of Motherhood

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Sometimes I sit and wish for a do-over. I don’t regret anything but I wish I could relive some moments from when my daughter was a newborn. I wish that I could approach new motherhood with the insight and knowledge that I have now! How perfect would that be? Unfortunately I can’t, but if it were somehow possible, here’s what I would tell myself.

You will not drop the baby on her head

As a new mom, you’re going to have some anxiety when it comes to caring for your baby. For some it’s a little and for others like me, there’s a lot. I worried about everything including the possibility of being a klutz and dropping my baby. I mean, I had no experience with kids whatsoever, so the thought of her somehow catapulting out of my arms seemed highly plausible, along with a ton of other irrational fears. You’re going to be fine, and so will your baby.

Accept help and feel guiltless about it

Another thing I worried endlessly about was that I would some how be less of a mom if I handed my baby off for a moment so that I could practice a little self care. I think sometimes as moms we get caught up in trying to do all the things and be essentially perfect. But your baby wouldn’t think any less of you if you took time for yourself, and you would actually be a better mom for it.

Your butt hole will explode and heal eventually (I promise)

So i’ll be straight with you, nobody warned me about the butt changes that occur during pregnancy AND childbirth. First of all, stool softeners and patience will be your best friend after labor. Imagine my shock when taking my first post-labor shower, to feel that my butthole was essentially turned inside out after pushing. To make matters worst, it was hard to go the bathroom for a while after the fact because of the epidural medication. It was literal hell! I told my friend about my dilemma and she nonchalantly told me that it happens but “it’ll be back to normal soon, it’s part of the process”. Gotcha! but a little heads up would’ve been nice.

Pack your cape away for a little while

Moms are literal superheroes but listen mama, I know the dishes need to be washed, there’s a pile of laundry, you didn’t shower and your hair is dirty. But take it from me when I say. Time flies! Your baby won’t ever be this little again and one day, will not need you this much. It might be new and a bit difficult to take a step back but do yourself a favor and try. Live in the moment and do the best you can. In 20 years what will you remember more? The laundry you got done or the days spent loving on your baby?

Talk to your husband about your feelings and expectations

I have a tendency sometimes to think that my husband could literally read my mind. And I sometimes have (and still do), expect him to know what I want and how I am feeling without even saying a word. Definitely don’t do this. Be clear about your expectations and communicate. You really don’t need the added stress of household friction on top of having a newborn.

You’re going to be less judgmental of other moms

Before I had my daughter, I swore up and down that I would NOT bed share, and I was super convinced that stay at home moms had it easy, lounging around and having me time while their kids napped. Boy was I delusional! For starters, I sat upright on my sofa for weeks because my daughter refused to sleep out of my arms. One day in a fit of desperation I laid her next to me in bed and cuddled her and it was the first proper sleep I got since she was born. To this day, she still refuses to sleep without me at night. As for my notion about lounging stay at home mothers? That went out the window real quick, sometimes I struggle to even make it to the shower if my husband isn’t home. Being a mom is hard work, whether you work or stay at home.

Follow your instincts

When you have your baby, you’re going to get tons of advice from well-meaning people. But every baby is different and what worked 10 years ago isn’t necessarily best practice now. The moral of the story is, you’re the mom and you know your kid. Follow your instincts and take advice from non-professionals with a grain of salt. You got this!

There will be tears, fears, doubts and missteps but that’s OK

You will cry (boy will you cry), you will be scared, you might think you’re doing things wrong and you will make a few blunders. But guess what? It’s part of the process, and your baby will forgive you.

Breastfeeding hurts

In the beginning your nipples will definitely suffer. As long as your milk is flowing and you decide to proceed, suck it up, slap some nipple balm on those bad boys and let them get to work. In a few weeks they’ll get used to gummy bites, tugs, pulls and everything in between.

If you’re worried about being a good mom, you’ve won half the battle

At some point during your motherhood journey, you will worry about your mothering skills. I questioned myself a lot! At every step of the way I was concerned about doing everything right! I think that especially came from information overload, Facebook mommy groups, professional Instagram mommies with their perfect shots and expert opinions on what should happen and how things should be done. Seriously though, don’t get too caught up in that stuff. Every kid is different, every family is different and everyone’s circumstances are different. The fact remains that all babies aren’t born to loving, caring mothers, and while sad, I hope you realize that if you do find yourself caring enough to be worried, you already are a good mom. As long as your child is happy, screw perfection.

xo

-Nic

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The Top 10 Items You REALLY Need In Your Hospital Bag

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If you’ve ever been pregnant, you’ve probably perused a list or two (or three) to find the ultimate must have items for your hospital bag. If you’re like me, you scoured tons of blogs and Pinterest lists looking for the perfect items to make your hospital stay a comfortable one. Unfortunately for me, I was induced two weeks early and my bag was incomplete despite all of my planning. Of course the hospital provided the essentials and I definitely had all of the baby’s things but there were still 10 key items that would have made my stay a more comfortable one.

1. A LONG Charging Cable

As a first time mom, I anticipated that I would be blissfully sleeping through the night, waking once or twice to feed my baby, and a freshly charged phone in the morning. Boy was I wrong! First of all, I was a tad bit, OK more than a tad bit naive about what it’s like having a newborn. By the second night of our hospital stay, my daughter cluster fed about every half hour over the course of a 12 hour period. She wouldn’t sleep unless I held her, and my phone helped to keep me alert despite the exhaustion, when it died however it was hell, so do yourself a favor and get a pack of these 10 ft. charging cables. You definitely won’t regret it.

2. Favorite Snacks

When I was admitted to the hospital, it was totally unexpected, one minute I’m getting a routine Non-Stress Test and the next I’m being told I’m going to be having a baby in the next couple of hours. I went to my appointment after work and hungry didn’t begin to describe how I felt. The hospital provided a meal but I would’ve liked to have one of my favorite snacks before being induced, it would’ve done a lot for my mood. They would’ve also made my nightly vigils with the baby a lot more tolerable. I distinctly remember aggressive stomach growling at 2:00am that I tried to mask by coughing so my suite mate wouldn’t hear. Amazon has some pretty cool variety packs so you can have tons of options.

3. Wireless Headphones or Earbuds

When I was in labor and was asked if I wanted a private room, I really should have said YES. Unfortunately I decided to share one since it was covered by my insurance. Big mistake. If you’re like me and you decide to share, wireless headphones or earbuds will be your best friend. While you’re up at night admiring your sleeping baby, you can listen to your favorite playlists or catch up on that podcast you’ve been meaning to. It will also drown out the sound of your neighbor’s baby, and visitors.

4. Night Gown and Robe

I actually took two breastfeeding nightgowns and robes with me and I was so happy I did. The hospital gown is confusing af to snap up and it just feels good to finally put your own clothes on after giving birth.

Pro tip: You don’t need to get gowns specifically made for breastfeeding, you can get any regular nightgown with an elastic enough strap (and tummy room) to pull up and down without actually having to snap and unsnap anything. Because who has time for that anyway?

5. Adult Diapers

The mesh panties and maternity pads the hospital provides are a nightmare and a half! The pad shifts, it fills up quickly and changing it is daunting when your baby doesn’t want to be put down in the middle of the night. When I got home my mom got me adult diapers, they were the best, like really comfy, absorbent, panties. They made things easy and helped me to forget the massacre that was occurring in my pants. Do yourself a huge favor and take these to the hospital with you.

6. Soap

While at the hospital I showered with their soap everyday. Honestly with each bath I was just happy to have water on my body, but as a new mama, taking a shower with a nice smelling soap that you love can do wonders for your frame of mind and your skin. Definitely get something organic and soothing to help relax you and won’t expose your baby to harmful ingredients.

7. Pillow

Take your own pillow with you! I repeat, take your own pillow with you. And put a distinctive pillow case on it while you’re at it. Not only are you taking a piece of home with you, hospital pillows kind of suck and they’re more than just a bit uncomfortable to lay on.

8. Portable Fan

While I was in the hospital, I legit wondered if the air condition was broken. I had my daughter in August and it was hot! Also, they keep the maternity suites, relatively warm (not hot) because it’s good for newborns. If you run hot like me, that’s the ultimate nightmare. My second night in the hospital I devoured ice chips because honestly, I forgot I actually had a portable handheld fan in my purse because being pregnant in the dead of summer is hard and clearly mommy brain started early.

9. Boppy Breastfeeding Pillow 

I had a Boppy lounger and breastfeeding pillow at home but did not take either to the hospital. The lounger is pretty unnecessary for your hospital stay but the breastfeeding pillow will make the world of difference especially for a new nursing mom. It helps with positioning and prevents arm fatigue from consistently holding your new clingy best friend. It also adds a nice cushion for the baby to lay on while in your arms, and a comfy baby is a happy baby.

10. Adjustable Infant Swaddle

I’ll be the first to confess I was a lazy swaddler, so by the time I left the hospital, my baby had grown accustomed to not being swaddled at night and it resulted in the nightmare that is now my co-sleeping experience. If you don’t want to be bothered with actually wrapping your baby up in a Swaddle blanket, there are alternatives like the Swaddle Me which reduces the risk of having loose blankets around your baby if he or she is an escape artist like mine. They will make your baby feel safe and make for better sleep for the both of you.

What were your hospital bag must haves? Leave a comment below and let’s discuss!

 

xo

Nic

Editor’s Note: This post is not sponsored and all items are ones that I actually use and love! However if you do purchase an item directly through the links I will receive a small commission at no cost to you.
Thank you, I appreciate your support. 
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The Rise of the MLM Hunbot

 

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The Rise of the MLM Hunbot

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Typically a young to middle aged mother who proclaims to have her own business but actually fell prey to multi-level marketing schemes. The hunbot can often be seen trying to sell their wares to other unsuspecting ladies on social media by luring them in with frequent use of the word hun.

As moms who basically post a lot about our families, I’m sure we’ve all been followed (and unfollowed) by the mythological creature the internet calls the Hunbot. You know, the mom who is “blessed to work from home”, a ”boss babe”, an “entrepreneur”, and a “business owner”.

While there are so many superwomen out there who are amazingly balancing families with budding legitimate businesses, the Hunbot is actually an uncertified or unlicensed individual who followed you in the hopes of selling you their essential oil, fitness motivation (lol), life coach services, weight loss, or skincare items that are bound to change your life! Another perk of you being randomly selected by the bot is the offer to join their business, they’re always looking for just “three more moms” to join the “community”.

One day you’re happily posting pictures of your cute baby, then @fitbabemomof12 follows you, not long afterwards you get a direct message saying something like “Hey hun! I love your page!!!, If you have a moment I would love to talk to you about an opportunity I think you’d be just perfect for!!!!” OR “Hey girl, cute family, i’d love to get to know more about you. Me? I’m a mom of 12 and super into (insert what they’re trying to sell you). My team and I are looking for a few more boss babes to join our community, would you be interested? I really also love the short but sweet. “Hey hun can I tell you about my new amazing business opportunity?”

While it’s tempting to make money without even getting out of bed (ha), have uncapped income potential (double ha), and possibly break away from the reigns of being a “wage slave” (their words, not mine). Maybe my family and I would be better off with the fantastic benefits my job offers such as a 401k, top of the line life, disability, vision, dental and health insurance or maybe it might be best to peddle snake oil and spam my friends, family and random strangers to death on the internet (and in person). I might get to spend more time cuddling my baby, and what on earth is better than baby cuddles?

Anyway, the moral of the story is, if your sole reason for following me on any social platform is to sell me something or to invite me to join your “tribe” or whatever you call it, do us both a favor and don’t.

Xo

-Nic

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The Art of Gratitude

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I was recently in the comments of the Shaderoom (lol) and randomly clicked on a commentors profile. She was a Harvard educated attorney, only 25 years old, with a beautiful daughter, living her best life as a single mom in LA. Her latest post however documented her feelings during pregnancy, specifically how she was lucky enough to be able to attend child psychology classes, she had two baby showers, one tea party themed, she got to go to baby prep classes, had maternity shoots and was able to do basically everything that most modern-day moms do or want to do to prepare for their baby.

While reading, I thought “wow, this is everything I wanted to do, down to the tea party themed shower”. Unfortunately I never got to do any of those things, but as she continued on, she wrote about how she didn’t have anyone to share the news about her baby’s gender with, nor did she have a partner to attend her appointments. She didn’t have a late night junk food companion, or someone to rub her back and feet or even cut the umbilical cord…she cut it herself.

Up until I read that post, I thought I had come to terms with the fact that I didn’t do any of the fun baby prep things because I was busy prepping for baby alright but it sure as hell wasn’t what I would call fun! So I felt maybe 1% resentful that I didn’t experience the “fun” things, but as I read on I felt 100% blessed and grateful that I did have my husband by my side throughout my pregnancy. Literally y’all, this man sat next to me in the car EVERY evening as I heaved and threw up into a (thick) plastic bag in the dead of winter with the windows up because I ALWAYS got car sick.

He made me laugh with comments such as “wow, it smells like cheese” and “when did you have rice? That looks like rice” and he was right next to me as I again went at in the toilet upon arriving home. When I started developing the symptoms that lead to preeclampsia, he rubbed my huge swollen feet everyday for hours on end, he even took me shoe shopping while laughing hysterically at the loaves of bread I called feet. We both went to all the ultrasounds, and check ups, we both worried about my ever rising blood pressure and we ate! We ate together and afterwards he would rub my back as I once again heaved into the toilet bowl. 

While I was pregnant, I was tired, overwhelmed even, because we really didn’t want to have our baby come home to our bachelor pad, basement apartment. It was dark, depressing and small. We worked hard, sacrificing warm shoes during blizzards and warm enough coats, just to be able to afford our home and for me to be able to take extended leave from work.

We worked so hard we were exhausted, so exhausted we just couldn’t do the fun stuff. There were late nights packing, and moving and painting to get everything ready. And like clockwork, I started developing preeclampsia the week after we moved in, with our baby girl arriving shortly after that. Again however, he was right by my side. So that 1% of resentfulness faded away as I thought about my experience, in so many ways, we are so fortunate, and I am so grateful for our journey. I promise you, I’m trying extremely hard not to be corny right now, but honestly sometimes, hard paths really do take you to some of the best places and again, I am so grateful.

xo 

-Nic